Praying

I sit with my eyes closed and call out, "Help me Lord Jesus. I can't do this alone. I can't do this without you. You have called me to do this. You promised to be with me and not leave me alone. Thank you for your promise."

Homeschooling is the hardest task that the Lord has ever given me. Yes, raising children is hard. Yes, being a godly wife and mother is hard. Being teacher, principal, counselor, and administrator feels nearly impossible. Well, it is impossible without God. I pray without ceasing. My children are succeeding. They are doing well and working ahead. The big picture looks great. It's the details that get a bit blurry. These details keep me awake as I lay in bed at night and try to fall asleep. Could I have been more gentle in my response? Was it really important to make her rewrite neater? Did I show the love of Jesus to my children, or was I ill-tempered and impatient? Yes, academics are very important. I tell my children that their first priority is to be a good student. However, I want my children to love the Lord. To know that He loves them no matter what. Am I showing them that I love them no matter what? I know that I do, but am I showing them? Do they see it in my eyes? Do they see anger and frustration? Oh, Lord help me. I can't do ANYTHING without you. Please help me to be a loving and patient teacher. Please give me peace about the details, and help me to remember that You are here. Always.

I continue to pray for victory in our homeschool.